Here I look at a conclusion that needed direction yet I didn't allowed myself to be assertive immediately in the moment because I wanted to give it a bit more time to see how it would unfold and I actually wanted to ask for a perspective, which I didn't allow myself to give.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on to past relationships.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not yet allowed myself to cut a string and pull the point completely through in and as assertiveness because I haven’t yet allowed myself to be absolute immediate within the decision I make and walk into being.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not yet allowed myself to be articulated and assertive about, which I already see as the direction that must be walked immediately, physically, change, integrate and walk the point into being as the realisation.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to immediately change, realign,integrate the decision as realisation yet allow delay in time to overrule the physical expression and make it a process wherein components of mind overwrites the physical as flesh.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not discuss my observations with those that have been walking what I am walking and in this prolong my process and that of others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not yet have integrated the point of communication and asking for perspectives because I patterned myself into a habit of: "I'm doing it all by myself; will find a way" instead of simple allowing myself to ask for input, perspectives, suggestions about a point.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself yet to realign this point into and as completion asking others that walked before me for a perspective and help on the matter at hand.
I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that asking those that walked this path before me for a perspective isn't a failure and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect asking others for help/assistance within failure.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate asking for a perspective with failure and giving up on myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect asking others questions/perspectives with giving up on myself.
I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realise and understand that Not asking for a perspective or Help is actually an act of giving up on expanding oneself because it excludes allowing self to learn through and from others.
I realise that I am used to, automated to do it all by myself that I actually must bring in here in and as physical awareness again- so I basically must realign this point completely. The automation of this point has been created because of the lack of understanding that one learns through asking, it hasn’t been part of my environment when growing up. I ask myself many questions yet I rarely allow myself to expand myself as these questions to ask and learn from others, which must be investigated and understood within myself, because it implies that I am actually isolating myself from others and all that is here to share, expanding and learning through communicating with each other.
When and as I see myself go into: self -doubt whether I should ask for a perspective about a point, - I stop, - I breathe within the realisation that I don’t Give up on myself by Not asking all is in reverse Asking others that have been walking this process before me for a perspective or input on the matter at hand is an act of Self Care a Gift to Self.
When and as I see myself go into: "I should ask for a perspective, some input ” yet not pushing myself to physically actually doing it - I stop, I breathe because I realise that: “I should” isn’t a physical action yet and will only prolong self expansion through communicating and learning from others into being.