Day 107 - "How to Make it Up": Self Correction

This is a follow up from: 

Day 106 - "How to Make it Up"

I see, realize and understand that within going into the character of "making it up again" I expect a certain outcome, which is getting to a state of harmony again within the relationship and in this: I realize that it's not solving or sorting out anything for real and only keeps me looping within a polarity construct as infinite cycles as fights and making it up again and therefore I let the "I want to make it up/I need to make it up" part of the How to make it up character go after I have been in a fight/conflict with someone. 

I see, realize and understand that the starting point of making it up is a play out of past automated habitual patterns which aren't serving both in the relationship because it keeps both enslaved within the relationship connection of playing a character of "making it up again" which gives a false idea/illusion of harmony again, wherein both overlook the fact that harmony and making it up can only exist when both within the relationship are willing to take self responsibility for the play out within the conflict as self and are both willing to step out of character and therefore I stop participating within and as the character of "making it up again"

I see, realize and understand that making it up as a character is actually a make up until the next outburst and the next into infinity repeating and playing in the same movie as the same character and therefore I stop participating within the stupidity loop. 

When and as I see myself go into the feeling/emotion of "I want to make it up again, I am in need of making it up again/how to make it up" I stop,- I breathe in the realization that I just accessed a character to express self through so therefore I stop. 

I commit myself to stop when I and as I see myself go into wanting to make it up again from the starting point of desiring balance again 

When and as I see myself go into a desire to make it up again I stop and breathe and ask myself 'who I am' within desiring balance in and as the relationship connection again and if not yet clear I sit with myself to write the point out to give self clarity.